A Blast From The Future

Would the future know elephants?

According To Hoyt

Come closer, children, and spread ears like elephants’.

Let me tell you about the time of the ancestors.  You’ve heard all the stories and I know most of you don’t believe them, but listen to me who am old and remember.

Yes, it is true that men could fly through the air like birds, only faster than birds.  They could go to the other side of the Earth because they wanted to see what was there.

Yes, it is true that the great sorcerers of that time had created a magic that could project your image anywhere.  People saw what was happening on the other side of the world even without going there.

Yes, it is true that people could put their opinions — or their breakfast, or their cat pictures — up in a place where anyone in the world could see them, so that if someone was lying…

View original post 512 more words


Nightmares #1

I am numbering this one because as often as I have nightmares, I am sure I will be wanting to use this title again.

I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping. The filling of my chest I mentioned yesterday is making it more and more difficult to breathe when I lie down to sleep, especially if I try lying on my left side, which is the side Karis likes to cuddle with me on. It used to be the way I could sleep best, turning my face away from the light seeping in the window around the curtain, nested in among my pillows and snuggled up. Now, I can’t get comfortable at all. Even sleeping at periscope depth is getting worse. I used to be able to better direct the dreams that came through, but now they take turns that I don’t expect and re-dreaming doesn’t seem to work the way it used to.

Let me explain. I dream in abstract movie scenes. I can almost always holler, “Cut!” and re-direct the scene if I don’t like the way it is going, or even back up and shoot the scene before it to make better sense. Last night I was dreaming an action/adventure flick with an actor who was a charming cross between Heath Ledger and Matt Ryan as a thief/conman/ne’er-do-well who had a crew and carried off daring heists. International renown, yada, yada. Anyway, he gets picked up and is expecting a rescue. He is being questioned in an office and discovers that the female of the pair questioning him has made him a special project because, unbeknownst to him, her former partner and probable love interest was killed in one of Charmer’s previous heists. Now this upsets him because he prides himself on no injuries to bystanders, and she mocks him with it. There is an explosion, but instead of the smoke bomb Charmer is expecting to cover his escape, it is expanding foam into the office and the doors are sealed. In his earwig, Charmer hears the voice of one of his crew, a fiery generic tan beauty who is vengeful because her little brother got pinched on a side job for Charmer and is doing a short stint in jail. As he/I suffocate to death, he/I hear her going on about how this is justice coming home to roost. No matter how I try, I cannot redirect the dream. I cannot fall asleep and start another because it is too fresh. Need I mention that being buried alive is my greatest fear. I am more than a little claustrophobic. Even when I had to wear a surgical mask as an X-ray tech, it put me on edge.

So, the nightmare was at 4:00 am. It is now 7:30 am. I’ve played World of Warcraft, Facebooked, and written this blog. I’ve been listening to the Bluegrass Gospel station on Pandora. Hopefully, that has put enough distance between me and the dream that I can get some more sleep. To sleep, perchance to dream….

Sinuses, Migraines, and Hallucinations

Migraines are such a pain in more than the head. I have ended up in the ER twice in a week with them. The first was the “my-brain-is-trying-to-explode-through-my-left-eye-and-take-all-the-muscles-in-my-neck-with-it” type. The ER doc gave me a new protocol of Benadryl, Reglan, and Dexamethadrone. It worked great. It unkinked a few things to the point where I was able to sleep more than 4-5 hours in a 24-hour period. Of course, it was still in 2-3 hour blocks, but there were more than 2 of them in a given day. Progress. The second was the more-usual-for-me-lately “my-eyes-are-going-to-pop-out-like-a-zit-because-there-is-a-vise-wrapped-around-my-skull-and-the-pressure-needs-somewhere-to-go” variety. This time I got shots of Ativan and Toradol, because the first cocktail was designed to provide relief for a month or so.

As I told my psych at my med check yesterday, I think I have an impacted sinus infection. Even with using my Flonase every day, I can’t breathe through my nose. I have fluid crackling in my ears half the time, often draining out of my right ear. I don’t care if the docs never see any redness or inflammation when they look. I can hear the sloshing. SJ thinks that may be the increase of some of my hallucination problems, too. I’m more concerned about the visual ones increasing than about the auditory ones, and I know the olfactory ones are migraine related. They always have been. And now my upper chest is starting to fill up and I am developing a cough. I am not a hypochondriac and I don’t google symptoms, but something is wrong.

Basically, I am waiting for the recall notice from the Manufacturer. “Even so.”

Boot Camp for New Believers

I have been involved in a Bible study with my small group, which unfortunately is disbanding because only four of us came on a regular basis and that includes the couple in whose home we were meeting. The whole church has been going through the Positive Action book Milk. We got into a discussion about what tools we would choose to further disciple a new believer. I put forth the suggestions of a good Bible concordance and a Bible dictionary as references, and to start a study working through John, Acts, and Romans, to cover the gospel, early church history, and a good foundation in doctrine. I was immediately shot down about the length of John and how it would be too intimidating for a new believer and we should start them out with a much shorter book, even if it is not as easy to understand so they would have a sense of accomplishment when they were done so soon.

That has frankly been sticking in my craw. That is not how we teach. Starting with something short but confusing so the student can feel good about finishing it rather than beginning with the basics and building a firm foundation? Is this how we welcome any newborn? Welcome to the world, have a steak? Is that how we train for any other endeavor? Is that how we start soldiers in any other conflict?

“For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.” – Ephesians 6:12

The answer is a resounding, “No!” We start recruits out in boot camp, training them rigorously over and over again in the basics of what they will need to know and how to face the enemy. Ask any sports coach the same thing. Because Satan will look at the new believer and see nothing but fresh meat. We cannot, must not allow them to be turned into cannon fodder. Once we have led someone to the Lord, we become their spiritual parent. We can no more abandon them after that event than a natural parent can abandon his or her child. The relationship is an eternal one, bound by the Holy Spirit and the blood of Christ. We have become so egocentric that we forget inherent in every relationship is a reciprocity of responsibility. Ephesians 5:21 – 6:9 and Colossians 3:18 – 4:1 both emphasize this in showing the dual responsibilities of mutual submission as unto the Lord. We need to guide the newborn along into the corpus of the Truth with patience and long-suffering, letting him or her know that we are in this together for the long haul. Training together, fighting together, working together, serving together; serving each other and the Lord.


Positive Action also has Meat, Bread, and Fish study booklets available on their site. I remember Milk, Meat, and Bread from my teens, but I don’t remember Fish. I will have to check into them as I can in the future for personal study.

Book Review: Sweep in Peace by Ilona Andrews (Innkeeper #2)

Sweep in Peace (Innkeeper Chronicles #2)Sweep in Peace by Ilona Andrews
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Once again, Andrews spins a web of many threads into a complex tapestry that dazzles the reader and draws her in.
In this second installment of the series, Dina is playing host to a Peace Conference that no other Innkeeper would touch. Betrayals, manipulation on a Machiavellian scale, assassinations, and a culprit that had me slapping my forehead thinking that I should have seen it coming because all the clues were there.
The world building is meticulous and intricate. Cultures are diverse and well-developed with their own histories and consistent internal logic. I’m addicted.

View all my reviews

Thanksgiving 2015

Of all the things I am thankful for, my salvation must take the top spot, but where things fall from there is a turkey shoot. My cats, my relative health, my living conditions, my relative mental status, my comfort, my stability, my family, my friends, my rediscovered joy in cooking, my writing, my freedoms as an American. All these gifts from God that surround me and that I know could be taken at the blink of an eye, I am so thankful for.

William Bradford giving thanks at the first thanksgiving by Jennie Brownscombe.

There are some nice people bring me a Thanksgiving meal today since I don’t really have family to celebrate with. Brother #1 is probably working at the car dealership and Sister-in-law #1 wouldn’t go out if her way to come get me. Everyone else is out of state. I’ll probably do some phone calling later.


Happy Thanksgiving to You and Yours!

Lead, Follow, or Get Out of the Way?

I have seen this phrase many times in my life, as the title of Bible Studies, messages, and devotional speeches. There was also a book by this title that I saw as a young woman directed at male Christian leadership. Shoot, I’ve even passed it on as a meme myself. I was awakened this morning with a conviction by the Spirit of this attitude. In my essay on the Bible not being misogynistic, I made the comparison of the man being the captain of the team. This is not a team-building attitude, especially on a Christ-centered team. As believers and followers of Christ, we are admonished to:

  1. Build one another up –


    Romans 14:19 – “Let us therefore follow after the things which make for peace, and things wherewith one may edify another.”


    Hebrews 10:24-25 – “And let us consider one another to provoke unto love and good works: not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as the manner of some is; but exhorting one another: and so much the more, as ye see the day approaching.”


  2. Bear one another’s burdens –


    Galatians 6:2 – “Bear ye one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ.”


  3. Submit ourselves to one another –


    Ephesians 5:21 – Submitting yourselves one to another in the fear of God.”


  4. Serve one another –


    Galatians 5: 13 – “For, brethren, ye have been called unto liberty; only use not liberty for an occasion to the flesh, but by love serve one another.”


  5. Admonish one another –


    Romans 15:14 – “And I myself am persuaded of you, my brethren, that ye also are full of goodness, filled with all knowledge, able also to admonish one another.”


  6. Love one another – so many, but this one sums up the motivation and the example the best –


    Ephesians 5:2 – “And walk in love, as Christ hath also loved us, and hath given Himself for us an offering and a sacrifice to God for a sweetsmelling savour.”


  7. Grieve not the Holy Spirit –


    Ephesians 4:30 – “And grieve not the holy Spirit of God, whereby ye are sealed unto the day of redemption.”


  8. Have the mind of Christ –


    Philippians 2:5-8 – Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus: who, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God: but made Himself of no reputation, and took upon Himself the form of a servant, and was made in the likeness of men: and being found in fashion as a man, He humbled Himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross.”

The last is the most important. Christ was not a dominating leader. He had the mind and attitude of a Servant. He was the King of Heaven and came to earth to die for our sins. He was “made lower than the angels“. Jesus washed the disciples’ feet. He sweat drops of blood in Gethsemane, yet said, “Not My will.”


So let us say instead, “Father, lead us. We will follow Christ and we will get out of the way of the Holy Spirit working in us and through us.”